(Forgive spelling & grammar).
Recently a few things have happened – Firstly, I was shocked and saddened by the death of Jo McCormack, at the age 50, who signed the Spice Girls, the hatred on Twitter, hating myself for feeling exhausted for trying to do too many things and have felt overwhelmed with stuff going on, the world has felt dark at times.
Now forgive me if I sound a pitiful brat, as I am more privilege than most… But what I want to share with you is this; I have spent much of my life striving and chasing my tail, pinning my happiness on stuff – success, marriage, have a baby, weight and so on.
There is nothing wrong in reaching for one’s dreams, but it’s so easy for me to get caught up in one’s ‘to do list’... paying the phone bill, food shopping, meetings, trying to look half decent, reading bedtime stories, shower, do email’s and then call that person back… Oh, and write a song too.
Sometimes I can’t keep up with myself, and the funny thing is I’ve noticed it in others too. Is it just city life? Or just the modern world we live in?
Then I got reminded by what probably could be my most valuable lessons – What really matters in my so-called ‘important’ life?
A 14-year-old comedian called Jack with Cerebral Palsy on Britain’s Got Talent who was funny and talented, but what I found really inspirational was he both optimistic and self-deprecating, making the most of life and was giving it back with full on joy.
Next was the terrible Boston bombing – The sadness, the despair, the hatred that breeds among us, telling us we live in a fearful world where bad things happen.
But then I read this by Martin Luther King.
“Darkness cannot drive out darkness, only light can do that, hate cannot drive out hate, only love can do that”
It got me thinking… In life, we have a choice between dark and light – And if so, which side am I on?
When I feel fear and hate, do I combat it with more fear and hate? Or, maybe just maybe, could my greatest weapon be love? It’s hard when I’m so caught up in selfishness or doubt. But when I STOP and take time for the world around me, consider what’s really important and what’s real – Gratitude, love & kindness towards others (and myself), no matter who they are to me (I’m talking about everyone not just nearest & dearest), I’ve noticed my whole living experience is different…
LIFE is LOVE, the world is suddenly a kind loving place.
Yes we salute success, how many Billions that dude has, or
what car he’s driving.
But, a life without love?
As I’m writing this, my car alarm goes off repeatedly, it won’t turn off, it’s late in the evening and I have no idea what to do! I suddenly think “f*ck I wish I had a husband to help me fix this!” – I then take it for a drive round the block and I then see a local workman called Adie, who kindly offers to help me and says “just get me some pliers”- how kind.
I’m constantly reminded to stop and ask myself what's important in life - Where would we be without love? … Oh, and pliers!
Lots of real love,